Broken

Hoy y muchos otros dias me senti asi:

I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain …away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone ..away

You're gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

tonight

I've decided something tonight: I'm better off alone... what does that mean? It means I'm tired of depending on people or things for happiness when I know the only way to get it is alone. If I'm already lonely... I might aswell be alone.
I wanted a nice 2005 but I know deep inside of me that it's not gonna be pleasent. However, that's ok. Like my friend Ashlee Simpson says (in another context) "I like it better when it hurts". So bring it on.
I know I'm not ready for all the things I have to do, but I'm gonna do'em anyway... and ALONE. If any of you needs me I'm gonna be the same Abi you know and love (hate), but don't try to help me, I didn't need it before, I don't need it now.
Thank you anyway for trying to make my life better... I'm sorry to tell you that you've failed.